again.

the day has come. and i am prepping for my next surgery. harder words have never been typed. or wait, they probably have. and that was when the last surgery happened.

• If you're just tuning in, the abridged version of the past 12 years: we moved to calgary

• I worked for 2 years with an oil and gas company

• I quit smoking which made my ulcerative colitis flare for a year non stop.

• I was hospitalized for a month.

• I started to hold it together but work stress kept creeping

• I got bronchitis in september 2010

• My dad died october 2010

• My illness got worse.

• I submitted to hospitalization in January 2011.

• February I had my large intestine removed.

• there was a fateful accident during the surgery.

• I recovered for many days and years.

I believed that my art practice was the only thing left to try that would give me another lease on life.

and now I am here. awaiting another surgery, hoping and wishing that it won't fall apart.

 again.